but i'm in so deep
you know i'm such a fool for you
Sakinah Abdul Aziz. Despite living 22 years of her life, she's still young at heart. Craves independence but still loves the company of her loved ones. Incredibly loud. Easily amused. Loves deep conversations, but loves the no-brainer ones too. A thrill-seeker. Detail conscious. Food magnet. Wants to see the world (:
She loves the simplest of things, as simple as how ducks can enjoy each other's company while waddling in a straight line. But come to think of it, it isn't that simple, is it?
Sleep & Hibernate
Wednesday, February 29, 2012, 6:41 PM
The human body has its ways to tell us that we need sleep, we need rest. The laptop has its ways too. So I've always put my laptop to hibernation instead of properly shutting it down. And today it suddenly decided to not work again. Just when things get busier and when I need my notebook the most.So I stoned for thirty minutes with a splitting headache, and decide to head home and hibernate too. Shan't ignore these signs that I too need some rest.
Merci
12:51 AM
Turning another year older gets more trivial as the years went by, but we learn to cherish the simple things in life. Like the beautiful people I'm continually blessed with; my parents and my family who have made the person that I've become today, my awesome friends with their heartwarming words that never fail to put a huge smile on my face, and to be blessed with a comfortable, mediocre life. Most importantly, I thank God for allowing me to live 23 years of this temporary life, which is so beautiful. All I'm looking forward to is a lifelong learning journey ahead to be filled with amazing experiences and opportunities coming my way for grabs, so that I know I live life to its fullest. And so I'd learn a thing or two about what life really is about, and that I could grow wiser, stronger in faith, a more contented individual and in general a better person.There's really nothing more I could say, but to say my utmost thanks.
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23 years old, and am still dreamy. Thanks to Mademoiselle Ah Qi (you must feel honoured that you're always mentioned here, hee) who reminded me of this excerpt I found 2 years ago. So I'm re-sharing this again. It's fluffy, but it goes to show that after 2 years, I could still dream. We all could.
“All I ever want is to show you how much I love you. I want to take your hand in my hand. I want to show you the places I go so I can think and the movies I watch. I want to show you all of the things I’ve written. Or all of the photos I’ve taken. I want to show you how beautiful certain people are and just how great it is to be a weird little mess. I want to show you how to accept and even embrace how tragic things can get. I want to show you that it’s okay not to believe and it’s okay not to be afraid to die. I want to show you how to breathe slowly and feel your own heartbeat. I want to show you that I’m not like everyone else you meet, that I’m not worried about what they worry about. I want to show you just how thrilling it is to jump off of high surfaces and run with your eyes closed tight. I want to show you that it’s lovely walking in the rain, letting rain drops run over your exposed skin and feel them drip off the tip of your nose. I want to show you how much I love people and no matter how worked up I get, I do deep down realize that I am so insignificant and tiny. I want to show you what it’s like to run wild and laugh your ass off in public. I want to show you how people look at me and how they talk to me. I want to show you how I move day to day and the things I wear. I want to show you my face, without makeup. I want to show you my life, but I have no idea who you are.”
Labels: gratitude, heart-warming, love
Dealbreaker
Friday, February 24, 2012, 2:41 AM
Rachael was great live! I think for someone to experience so much emotion and to translate it to write some beautifully sad songs, mostly deep songs and all in all just downright awesome songs is one difficult task. And to sing all these live and to feel the emotions through her naturally unique voice that resounds in the Esplanade Concert Hall is such a great way to spend a day in my busy recess week. Worth every dollar.So perhaps my entries have been very lyrics-filled lately. But this one's just good. Rachael was sick so she had problems doing the chorus, but she was amazing still!
I found that record you'd been looking for yesterday
The one I'd been searching for forever
I played that record all night, you were right
The last song said it all
Even though it skipped a bit, it sounded better
I never, I never, I never knew
The only way to listen to a record like that
Is to play it through
But all of this means nothing
Yeah, all of this means nothing
All of this means nothing
Without you
I packed up the car and started to drive
Without a plan,with no direction
You said it'd be good for me
To break out of my daily routine
You were always trying to teach some lesson
You wanted, you wanted, you wanted me
To feel the open road with the wind on my face
Well,I'm here and I'm finally free
But all of this means nothing
Yeah,all of this means nothing
All of this means nothing
Without you
You and I were partners in crime
Petty thieves in a line up
But somehow we wound up here
I'm looking at a letter that I wrote to you long ago
I wouldn't even know now where to send it
It's funny how it all poured out on paper
If only I had found a way to tell you
If only,if only,if only you
Had found a way to love me for wwho I am
The way that I loved you
But all of this means nothing
Yeah,all of this means nothing
All of this means nothing
Without, without, without, without you
Labels: clips, lyrics, music, musicians
Rebirth
Thursday, February 23, 2012, 12:18 AM
Oh Sara, you're always an amazing musician to me.I think this is one of my favourites from Kaleidoscope Heart. But then again, I think all of her songs are awesome! Well, I think we have those days where we feel so low, so bleargh that just need to feel rejuvenated. Here's the best song that describes it.
I wish I were pretty
I wish I were brave
If I owned this city
Then I'd make it behave
And if I were fearless
Then I'd speak my truth
And the world would hear this
That's what I wish I'd do, yeah
If my hands could hold them you'd see
I'd take all these secrets in me
And I'd move and mold them to be
Something I'd set free
I want to darken in the skies
Open the floodgates up
I want to change my mind
I want to be enough
I want the water in my eyes
I want to cry until the end of time
I want to let the rain come down
Make a brand new ground
Let the rain come down
Let the rain come down
Make a brand new ground
Let the rain come down tonight
I hold on to worry so tight
It's safe in here right next to my heart
Who now shouts at the top of her voice
Let me go, let me out, this is not my choice
And I always felt it before
That the world was filled with much more
Than the drowning soul I've learned to be
I just need the rain to remind me
I want to darken in the skies
Open the floodgates up
I want to change my mind
I want to be enough
I want the water in my eyes
I want to cry until the end of time
I want to let the rain come down
Make a brand new ground
Let the rain come down
Let the rain come down
Make a brand new ground
Let the rain come down
Là où tu es
Friday, February 17, 2012, 12:42 AM
Immense et RougeImmense et rouge
Au-dessus du Grand Palais
Le soleil d'hiver apparaît
Et disparaît
Comme lui mon coeur va disparaître
Et tout mon sang va s'en aller
S'en aller à ta recherche
Mon amour
Ma beauté
Et te trouver
Là où tu es.
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When Kamal read this in French class, I can't help but to ask him for that piece of paper. I find this poem beautiful. Perhaps it's simple (or rather, my French vocabulary is that limited heh), or short, but I like it (:
At least looking at romantic poetry is better than dwelling on the many tests and assignments and presentations I will be facing soon after the recess week *inhales
Saturday morning
Sunday, February 12, 2012, 1:47 AM
It's a little, it's a little luck, it's a little so oh, oh, oh, what
It's a little, it's a little love, it's a little love for what we've got
It's another day to start making up
Oh baby, just look how lucky we got.
Saturday Morning on repeat while on my way to school on Saturday morning. Just lovely. One of Rachael's happier songs. So glad that she's singing happier songs for Chesapeake!
Can't wait!
Labels: music
Juno
Thursday, February 9, 2012, 10:25 AM
Want to watch again :)
Wait for me
Wednesday, February 8, 2012, 12:32 AM
I always find myself in the same situation too many times before. The world's a fast-moving place, I'm in a whirl and I just want everything to be in slow motion, I want it all to stop even just for a minute. And then I would ask myself; what is it that I really want to do? All I want to do, is really to be in the entirety of myself and treating myself like I am my own lover; listening attentively to myself and listening to my needs, my wants, independent of anything, anyone and any influences of any sorts. All I want to do is to sit somewhere and do nothing, with no disturbances, no emails, no text messages to attend to. I want to pick a good book and read in a safe, comfortable place, and just be pensive. And do a great deal of catching up with myself, perhaps with a good movie or in places where I could find tranquility. To take a bus to nowhere and just plugged into great music. And to think about life, think about the good times, think about many good times to come, think about ideas, think of ways to improve myself, do some reflections, count my blessings, appreciate my loved ones, be joyful and just be at peace. The world is too fast a place for me. There are just too many things for me to keep up with and all I find myself uttering in my head to anyone and anything is; "Wait for me, wait wait wait wait wait wait.."I think the world is becoming a scary place because we stop thinking about ourselves and we start to ignore ourselves. Like we don't exist independently anymore and we are just manifestations of work, people and all these things we are doing. If we could only just start attending to ourselves.
Labels: introspection, thoughts
You're beautiful
Monday, February 6, 2012, 12:13 AM
Through and through, I always believe that happy people are the most beautiful people (although yeah, it could and might work in reverse; the most beautiful people are the happiest people). But I persist to think that the former correlation is far more true. Because I've seen these people. It's really their inner soul that shines through whatever their physical appearances may be, whatever life they are leading, whatever hardships they may have faced. You can really see this glow on the faces of genuinely happy people; people with sincere duchenne smiles, people who exude positive energy, people who laugh, people who allow you to bask in their warmth, people who spread their joy and make it all so contagious. It's this ball of happiness that comes from within that is so beautiful, so strong that their faces just mirror that.To happy people out there who do happen to be reading this, I think you're beautiful.
Labels: beauty, people, thoughts
Hello, Saturday
Sunday, January 29, 2012, 3:12 PM
The best thing about having a night class every Friday is how I'd go home and turn in forgetting it is actually a Friday night, so I'd wake up the next morning to be pleasantly surprised that it is Saturday again. Woohoo!If it's not too late for coffee
I'll be at your place in ten
We'll hit that all night diner
And then we'll see
There's a love that transcends
All that we've known of ourselves
And I'll wait for it to come
I'll wait for it to come
Well it's got to be strong to touch my heart
Through its shell
And I'll wait for it to come
I'll wait for it to come
One of my ol' favourites on a lazy Sunday. Together with:
Tiger Lily - Matchbook Romance
Hands Down (acoustic version) - Dashboard Confessional
Livejournal
Tuesday, January 24, 2012, 11:52 PM
You know, it's quite interesting to see how I'm intrigued by my own past blog entries in my livejournal. Those were the days where I used to put in the effort in posting pictures, sharing more song lyrics, daily conversations and shenanigans, funny videos, my favourite lines from my favourite movies and the interesting days I had. Gosh, is this part of growing up when I just stop trying to make things interesting anymore around here? Heh. Well, technically, if my mom hadn't told me that she was actually reading my livejournal, I would have stayed there. Hmm.Found this! Like.
The Square Root of 3
by Kumar Patel
I’m sure that I will always be
A lonely number like root three
The three is all that’s good and right
Why must my three keep out of sight
Beneath the vicious square root sign
I wish instead I were a nine
For nine could thwart this evil trick
with just some quick arithmetic
I know I’ll never see the sun, as 1.7321
Such is my reality, a sad irrationality
When hark! What is this I see
Another square root of a three
As quietly co-waltzing by
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer
Rejoicing as an integer
We break free from our mortal bonds
With the wave of magic wands
Our square root signs become unglued
Your love for me has been renewed
For the longest time
Monday, January 23, 2012, 1:45 AM
The song I'd go back to, from time to time :)
Labels: music
If all is well
Tuesday, January 17, 2012, 9:39 PM
There are days when you feel like crawling into a deep hole, to stay there and to never leave. And you just want to let the world spin without you and you'd be more than happy to be missing out on it.I think this phenomenon is worth investigating; the one-week, delayed PMS.
If there is such a thing, really.
I have been having half-written entries stuck in my postings. I also realised that my blogging style has been pretty cryptic most of the time (or I try to be as much as I could). And if you don't think that my entries have been cryptic in nature, then I've failed to be a cryptic blogger as I aspired to be when I first started this. So anyway, it's about time I should publish something and not let this be stuck, halfway-written like some others.
So anyway, I had a pretty good but tiring start to the semester last week, and perhaps there were just so many things that I feel so damn tired right now. It's as if school never really ended, you forgot that it actually started because school has become this never-ending phase that it is not exactly a phase anymore because it has become a part of you. It is as if the beautiful December not long ago was a huge, colossal black hole. School started with an array of housekeeping issues, and me trying to hunt my ISM supervisor down on what to do next, and typically her, has been unresponsive. And then there's French, the one thing I enjoy learning and it's really amazing to be experiencing this overwhelming joy when I could comprehend Madame's French in class, but when you're thrown with some incomprehensible literary text, you kinda doubt why you love it in the first place. But I guess I'll try to see this difficulty as something pleasantly thrilling. And certainly, the joy of learning is something I always look forward to as a student, especially now when things seem to be more in-depth, more practical and applicable. So hopefully I can graduate saying that I am truly a Psychology major. What make things bleak, difficult and repulsive are really the things that are associated to the things you're passionate about, like the crazy workload that is beyond your means, the assignments that make you lose your sleeping hours, mental and physical drainage, the unsurmountable readings you're attempting to dissect, the pressure to excel, the fear of failing and losing out, and particularly the expectations that are set upon you. So the approach I'm intending to work on for my final semester, and probably the last time as a student (if I don't go on to postgrad), is to really enjoy my classes as if I'll never be assessed, as if there is no such thing as CAP, as if there is no such thing as first-class honours, second-class honours or third-class honours, and as if there is no stress nor pressure. Just me, embracing the complete notion of the pleasure of learning. I would say that this isn't something so easy to do, and thought of a looming grueling battle to achieve all that is killing me already. But I'll work on it.
Another thing that seems pretty daunting and something I've slowly come to realise is the fact that I would be facing major crossroads as well.
And then there are other things. Sometimes you start to question yourself about your quality of life in general, and you try to assess where you stand in the hedonistic sense. And you go through this checklist; your physical aspect, your spiritual well-being, your social life, your family, your emotional well-being and the list goes on. And then you're left wondering if you've really lived life to its fullest. I should know this well enough, that social comparison does no one good. But being aware of this underlying mechanism that is causing all this overthinking is a good start for me to realise that who I am today and the things I've done and experienced are things I have never regretted, and that I have lived life the best as it deserves to be, as it ought to be.
And then there are also the other other things. Things that are beyond your comprehension, your sub-conscious or your unconscious self that you are not able to have access to, but to wait patiently until things present themselves before you. And as of late, I've been really wishing I can read minds, consistent to how others really think we Psychology majors are trained to do. But unfortunately, that misconception indeed remains a misconception.
Guess digging a hole for awhile to bask in nothingness would be nice. That, or if I could have the option of being a kid once again when everything and anything fascinates and having no care about the world. Yesterday a kid just told me that she's going to dissect a frog today and I secretly felt envious of her as she widened her eyes in excitement while telling me that.
Well, whatever it is, it sure feels good to pen these down.
And like the 3 idiots would say, I really hope all is well.
Labels: deep, emo, life, questions, ramblings, school, thoughts
Open your eyes
Sunday, January 15, 2012, 5:43 PM
We just have toOpen our eyes, our hearts, and minds
If we just look bright to see the signs
We can’t keep hiding from the truth
Let it take us by surprise
Take us in the best way,
Guide us every single day,
Keep us close to You,
Until the end of time
You created everything,
We belong to You.
We raise our hands,
Forever, we thank You.
Le Dieu, ne me laissez pas dépourvu de la foi.
Midnight in Paris
Sunday, January 8, 2012, 9:12 PM
Gil, who truly believes that he belongs to the 1920s instead of his present time, stumbled upon a Peugeot which brings him back in time. The 1920s, where he yearns to be, where he could meet inspiring people who inspire him to write and of course, where he could meet an alluring lady like Adriana. And all it takes was a midnight roam in Paris and voilà, a magical experience awaits. Well, just like Gale, I stumbled upon my own lala-land ever since the beginning of my December holiday and just like him, I never really wanted to leave. Can I not? I love the holidays and I really had a good time.Woody Allen must be pleased with me for using his plot from Midnight In Paris to uh.. depict my sheer mental unreadiness for school tomorrow, my real world, and my reluctance to leave lala-land. I must say that I quite like the concept Allen used in the movie; the whole idea of how we continuously idealize the other world, but the present time we are in.
First 9 am seminar tomorrow.
Back to reality, pumpkin.
On a good note, Mademoiselle Ah Qi brought me to a lovely bookshop :)
I wish I really have all the time in the world to smell the best smell on earth, and that is the smell of books
(not academic readings).
Clearly, I need a serious optimism fix for my last semester. Ok go!
Labels: fantasy, movies, school
Laughter
Friday, January 6, 2012, 7:19 PM
If there is one thing I'd tell a person at this moment, it shall be; to be around people who make you laugh. Doesn't really matter if you're a giggler, or a chuckler, or a cackler, or a guffawer, as long as you truly laugh in your very own special way. Life is too short to not see the lighter side of things. And if you're really lucky, you'll meet the very few special people who make you laugh in a way that instantly ignites this small part of you, spreading to your bones and skin, and then you suddenly feel so, so alive. And the best part? You never really knew you could laugh like that.Don't miss out on it.
Labels: introspection, people, thoughts
Chesapeake
9:17 AM
Can't wait for February!
:)
Labels: music
The Notebook
Thursday, January 5, 2012, 12:37 AM
Cos I'm really a sucker for beautifully written love letters.Why oh why.
My Dearest Allie,
I couldn’t sleep last night because I know that it’s over between us. I’m not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I’ll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that’s what you’ve given me. That’s what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I’ll be seeing you.
Noah
Labels: deep, letters, love, movies
The simple pleasures in life
Sunday, January 1, 2012, 1:40 PM
In no particular order:Making someone smile
Seeing strangers smile back at you
Rolling your tongue over heavily syrup-coated Baklavas from Turkey
Basking under the Sun on the Lazy River like a boss
Deep conversations
1-to-1 McNuggets
Baking something for the first time and then eating your very own product immediately the moment you've done your finishing touches
Licking cheese cream frosting from your index finger from a very fine tupperware
Watching Bean movie with the sister and laughing away as if it was the first time watching it
Taking your time to shop and trying on every single apparel you love as if you own the hours on the clock, on a perfect weekday
Roaming Town alone and going anywhere you want to
Seeing how your unread, good books are piling up and loving the idea of books waiting on you
Spending late nights just talking
Getting out from the bed to drag yourself for breakfast dates
Heading to the airport not only to send/fetch people, but really to just be at the airport
Seeing how people value your company as much as you value theirs
Eating whatever you crave for, like fried nothings, corn in the cup, almond pretzels, and every cuisine you like
Coming over to your friend's place just to fry French Toast, not for breakfast, but for lunch instead
Having a library book recommended by your father because he thinks it's the sort of book you would like to read to feed your spiritual need
Discovering new places, and revisit certain places to create new memories
Loving the view from your room despite seeing the same ol' view for 13 years of your life
Commuting on long bus rides and knowing there is nothing to rush for
Smelling an approaching downpour and being able to watch from afar how the raindrops actually reach you
Spending hours in the confines of the room just singing; just you and your awesome tunes from the laptop (and locking the door to make sure no one enters on your horrible singing!)
Just laughing; pure genuine, whole-hearted laughs
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Happy 2012, all!
Labels: deep, family, food, friendships, fun, girlfriends, heart-warming, lists, shout-outs
Bicycles
Friday, December 16, 2011, 12:52 PM
As I am sitting here, waiting for a bus to Rey's place, a man in his prayers attire cycled passed me. And so my random wishful thinking on a Friday would be how much I wish I'd stayed in the suburbs so I could cycle everywhere I go, like how people commute in Europe, in China and in all pockets of suburbs in the world. Besides I think bicycles are neat, and people can look pretty chic on them! They don't need buses unless they want to head down to the city. And they can head to the nearest bakery and have a lovely morning chat with the baker and bring home some awesome croissants!
Labels: dreams, random, thoughts
The Hunger Games Trilogy
Thursday, December 15, 2011, 3:09 PM
I. CANNOT. WAIT. TO. CATCH. THIS!I am so moving on to read the second book.
And oh, Peeta Mellark, how can I not love you?
Labels: books
Because I do like you
Tuesday, December 6, 2011, 7:24 PM
Labels: music
Lovers
Wednesday, November 16, 2011, 12:43 AM
"The minute I heard my first love story,I started looking for you, not knowing
how blind that was.
Lovers don't finally meet somewhere.
They're in each other all along."
- Rumi, The Illuminated Rumi
Excerpt of a beautiful poetry
Sunday, November 13, 2011, 9:16 AM
Sometimes, He breaks our spirit to save our soul.Sometimes, He breaks our heart to make us whole.
Sometimes, He allows pain so we can be stronger.
Sometimes, He sends us failure so we can be humble.
Sometimes, He allows illness so we can take better care of ourselves.
And sometimes, He takes everything away from us...
so we can learn the value of everything He gave us
Make plans, but understand that we live by His grace.
Although they plan, Allah also plans. And Allah is the Best of Planners.
[Holy Qur'an 8:30]
Serendipity
Sunday, November 6, 2011, 12:49 AM
ser·en·dip·i·ty
[ser-uh
n-dip-i-tee]
n-dip-i-tee]noun
1.
an aptitude for making desirable discoveries by accident.
2.
good fortune; luck
I'm beginning to think that serendipity.. it does exist.
Labels: deep
Closure
Sunday, October 30, 2011, 10:02 PM
I would think that most of the chapters of our lives have their very special or unique or tragic or ordinary, rightful endings, like the end of secondary school, the end of a beautiful trip, the end of a suffering. I think that closure is a very important notion in our lives. Often we think of closure as something negative when it actually forms the very process of life. If we don't have closure, then we're not really moving on with that particular phase in our lives, like how we're still holding onto the book without being able to turn the pages because we're still stuck on that chapter. Because closure indicates a new beginning. And typically I started analyzing back upon which there could have been a closure.So could it be that the story hasn't ended yet?
Labels: deep, introspection, life, thoughts
With every person
12:59 AM
"God doesn't give you the people you want, He gives you the people you need. To help you, to hurt you, to leave you, to love you, and to make you the person you were meant to be."
Labels: quotable quotes
Living Louder
Saturday, September 24, 2011, 8:55 AM
I absolutely love The Cab, particularly this one sung by them. Great lyrics.Living Louder - The Cab
If today's the day I die
Lay me down under the lights
Let me fall in love
Let me save a life
And let me lose my voice
Singing all my favorite songs
Let me stare up at the stars
'Cause its where we all belong
My heart like a fight
Your working my chest
My only regret is having regrets
Travelled the world
I loved every step
And all I know is;
No one, no one lives forever
We will be remembered
For what we do right now
And baby I'm living louder
And dreaming longer, tonight
And baby I'm fighting harder
And loving stronger tonight
'Cause we're all just kids
Who grew up way too fast
Yeah the good die young
But the great will always last
We're growing older
But we're all soldiers tonight
If today's the day I go
Gonna drink with all my friends
Gonna laugh until we cry
As we talk and reminisce
And let me kiss a stranger
And rob the local bank
Let me become real rich
So I can give it all away
When you've got your breath inside your head
Every day's a second chance
If I wake up with a beating heart
Will I stand or will I fall?
I'm living louder
Dreaming longer tonight
Baby I'm fighting harder
And loving stronger tonight
And baby I'm living louder
And dreaming longer tonight
(were living louder, were living louder)
And baby I'm fighting harder
And loving stronger tonight
(were loving stronger, were loving stronger)
'Cause we're all just kids
Who grew up way too fast
Yeah the good die young
But the great will always last
We're growing older
But we're all soldiers tonight
Extroverts
Friday, September 16, 2011, 8:52 PM
I am so inspired to write probably a short, brief entry on extroverts and our biases about them. It is just an observation that I thought would be worthy to write about, just because (and that I refuse to study right now). Also, I've always been intrigued about people's personality and how these portrayals of "self" can actually influence how others may treat you the way they do. And lastly, while extroversion has its positive connotations, there are some dark sides as well.Based on the layman's definition of 'extrovert', it simply describes a person who is energized by being around other people. So what I think could potentially be a bad thing for extroverts is how people form erroneous impressions of them that might undermine the true substance that makes up the person himself. What I mean by this is how people can easily arrive to the conclusion that just because extroverts possess a relatively wider circle of friends, they do not strive for depths in personal relationships and they do not value individual interactions (one-to-one) as much as the rest do. Let me share this quote that will probably do a better job in putting across a similar message as what I'm attempting to argue here.
Fluffy or not, if you get my drift, the underlying message here is that; things are not as they seem to be if judged based on face value. I might be wrong in attempting to speak for all extroverts, but I believe there is some truth to it, and some extroverts out there indeed feel that what they really are, can easily be defined just based on their public display of interactions with people. I am not saying that little can be said about one's personality through interactions, but it is also wrong to wholly judge people just solely based on this.
So all of us form certain perceptions, right? And sometimes we judge, it's perfectly normal. I'll share mine. I used to think that this friend of mine has a rather happening life a one point in time. Contrary to what I think at that point in time, that was not true. So she proceeded on to explain to me how her friends actually thought that she's been going out a lot as well when she hadn't. So one clique assumed that she's been going out with the other clique, and another thought the same thing too, and so on so forth, when.. that was not true at all! I think some of us could relate to that, and it can be frustrating when your friends assume such things just because you have a wide circle of friends. So at the end of the day, if everyone adopts this mindset, what's gonna happen to the poor extroverted soul?
I think the main implication here is how in the long run, false impressions of extroverts can harm their friendships. For the lack of better example, people can easily use the excuse of "Oh you have your other friends what" in explaining their lack of effort or their absence. I know many extroverted people who value close intimate friendships, and despite having a wide circle of friends, they know how to prioritize the inner circles, and the closest people whom they cherish. Bottomline is, extroverts or introverts, we essentially need to acquire the important skill of prioritizing and balancing.
I would like to just have a personal say to conclude this. Every single friend deserves to be known on a personal level (if you allow yourself to, depending on where you want the friendship to be headed). Although our identities can be enhanced due to attachments to groups or cliques, I believe that you know someone best when it's one-to-one. And let's not forget our introverts too. Just because they enjoy being by themselves, it does not mean they won't enjoy your company!
Labels: deep, friendships, introspection, people, random
Answers
Wednesday, September 14, 2011, 12:10 AM
And then, the emotions come.
Bliss
Friday, September 9, 2011, 5:46 PM
Oasis says "Don't Look Back In Anger". But have you ever looked back and feel that if you've been given another chance to relive your life, you will not change a thing?It's Friday today. Well, I would say that it's been a pretty ordinary day. Had to force myself out of bed and I attempted to be in school by 9 am but failed miserably (as did everyone else in my group) for a project meeting. Had to brave the crowd to get to the science faculty to get my laptop fixed. Typically, my day in school revolves around readings, groupmates, and just awesome people I love to socialize with. If there's one thing I feel grateful for, it would really be the people in it. I have mentioned this number of times before; that if I don't feel socially connected, it's as good as saying that I'm dead. So I am eternally grateful for people who make school bearable.
Anyway cutting to the chase, the reason why I brought up the question at the very first paragraph is because right at this beautiful moment, sitting in my living room and still in my school clothes, I feel nothing but bliss and gratitude. This morning, I woke up and I felt good about myself. I took a few seconds to say thanks to God, and thanks to myself for feeling good. When I was on the 20-minutes bus ride back home just now, I feel nothing but gratitude too. Now you must be wondering why. Well, they say creative juices flow when you're in showers. For me, my mind wanders to great lengths when I'm on bus rides. I took the time to look back and reflect upon the past 6 months. About a couple of months ago, I remembered myself being in an ugly mess. I remembered the person I was at that time, I only remembered how bleak I thought life was, and I remembered asking "How do I go on?" once upon a time. When I looked at my past self and myself right now, I feel a sense of positivity crawling from my skin, and that my outlook seems to improve, and I feel nothing but pure gratitude. I am aware that this state of the moment might be short-lived, or it could be long-lived, but whatever it is, I am just deeply grateful and I am allowing myself to bask in this moment, even if it is for little while.
If you look at the second paragraph, sounds like I had a typical day huh? But any typical day can be filled with so much meaning, if you let it. And for me, it is a day filled with bliss and gratitude.
Labels: deep
Because I form conversations in my head everyday
Tuesday, September 6, 2011, 4:08 PM
Gosh so the internet connection is screwed or maybe it's just my 3-year-old beloved laptop. This is really in the moment kind of entry because I realised that one of my best abilities is to dream and dramatize. Although mind you, through the years I've become really practical in terms of mentality but every girl dreams right? So I realised that I tend to have one-sided conversations, with myself (yeah I know, sounds crazy) but I believe everyone has this self-talk going on. But I do that. It could be someone imagining a whole conversation with let's say, an old flame. Perfectly normal. I know some of you would probably think that having one-sided conversations can lead to regret especially if we don't fully execute it but it is actually a form of catharsis. But that's not the point I'm trying to put across. While I am here typing on this iPhone in the school library's multimedia room, with a rather mediocre view of the trees, I am here wondering perhaps I could be a scriptwriter? Since I make conversations in my head everyday, and some of them are pretty dramatic and good. Ha, ktnxbye!Labels: random
School and Modules
Friday, September 2, 2011, 3:31 PM
It's 3:30 PM and I am still on my bed. I love Fridays. Actually it's also because of the fact that I have a 3-day work week after all the module drama I had to face. Monday to Wednesday. But this also means that I have more time to slack, so I'd go to school anyway to catch up with the crazy readings. So officially, I am reading these modules:
Positive Psychology
Addictive Behaviour
Sport Psychology
Evolutionary Psychology
Ok nyeh hope that looks good. Please help me in my CAP, thanks.
So here's just a short list of the things you appreciate when you're in Year 4
1) The familiar faces
2) That's about it
I FEEL OLD.
Been listening to Priscilla Ahn, she's just brilliant. Alongside other influential female artists :)
On a bright note, Happy Eid Mubarak although I'm a few days late.
Labels: school
Can't take that away from me
Thursday, August 25, 2011, 11:02 AM
The perks of running your player on shuffle (: I chanced into a good, uplifting song.
"If you have peace within yourself, nobody can touch you no matter what happens." - Mariah Carey
Well said, Mariah!
Here you go!
They can say,
Anything they want to say,
Try to bring me down,
But I will not allow anyone to succeed hanging clouds over me,
And they can try
How to make me feel that I,
Don't matter at all,
But I refuse to falter in what I believe or lose faith in my dreams
Cause there's,
There's a light in me,
That shines brightly,
They can try,
But they can't take that away from me
From me
Oh they,
They can do
Anything they want to you,
If you let them in,
But they won't ever win,
If you cling to you pride, and just push them aside,
See I,
I have learned,
There's an inner peace I own,
Something in my soul that they can not possess
So I won't be afraid and the darkness will fade
Cause there's,
There's light in me me,
That shines brightly, yes
They can try,
But they can't take that away from me
No oh oh,
They can't take this
Precious love I'll always have inside me,
Certainly the Lord will guide me where I need to go
They can say
Anything they want to say,
Try to bring me down,
But I won't face the ground,
I will rise steadily sailing out of their reach,
Although they do try,
How to make me feel that I,
Don't matter at all,
But I refuse to fall,
Tell me what I believe or lose faith in my dreams,
Cause there's a light in me,
That shines brightly yes
They can try but they can't take that away from
Me
From me
No no nooo
Me
-
She is just an awesome singer. I would have to thank my Mom for introducing me to Mariah Carey when I was in primary school, haha.
Labels: artists, clips, lyrics, motivation, music
Sakinah
Friday, August 19, 2011, 10:50 AM
Good morning! I feel pretty perky today, after reading Sha's first email from London! She's continuing to pursue her medical degree there. I'm a proud friend (:
2 days ago, I was walking along the school walkway and I bumped into a friend of mine. He's a Chinese, and recently converted into Islam. Now, that matters because I bet 50% of the Muslims in this world probably do not know the meaning of my name (ok, am unsure about the statistics but perhaps mostly the Asian Muslims). He just muttered my name and said, "Your name carries a beautiful meaning... tranquility." And I just stood there, amazed and awestruck. Yes people, contrary to how I carry myself (probably not a peaceful person at all), my name means 'tranquility', or 'God-inspired peace of mind'. Usually most of my friends who asked for the meaning of my name would scoff jokingly because of the apparent contrast of my personality and my name, but this guy, he actually said "It's the inside.. that you're peaceful". Yes, I may not be a peaceful person in terms of personality and behaviour since I yak and laugh about a lot, but, inside, I am hoping that I have a peaceful mind (:
Labels: introspection, Islam
Ma vie pendant l'été
Monday, August 1, 2011, 2:31 PM
Hello earthlings! Woa, just like that time flew. I withdrew myself from this blog and I realized that it REALLY does need a lot of updating. For one, I had a temporary job for 2 months at People's Association. I was back in the same department I worked in exactly a year ago. For another, there was one point in time when I thought my life was a mess, it wasn't all so long-lived though (or so I hope). As they say, when it rains, it pours. But also, there's this saying that time heals all wounds, and that there's always light at the end of the tunnel. I, for one, believe that there are truths in such cliché-d sayings. And also, I went to Bangkok for a short, awesome shopping trip. I honestly do not know how three months fly.I attempt to update my blog more, not for the sake of readers (I don't even know if there's anyone reading this anymore), but purely for myself. I remembered the humanistic feel I had a couple of years back, completely in touch with my feelings, and if there's any need for me to vent, I'd come here. And if there's any interesting thoughts and opinions, I'd turn to this space too. Also, Ramadhan is here, and I want to feel rejuvenated. I am amazed at how time really flew, here I am, standing and greeting Ramadhan again (thank you God for allowing me to see this day), and I am amazed that I'm standing here, doing my fourth, final academic year before I could see myself in that blue robe. I sincerely hope that the rest of the year would be good to me, and to my fellow loved ones.
I would love to give this book a second read. I wouldn't say that it's my ultimate lifesaver (although to some degree, yes), but I admire how Elizabeth Gilbert handled the shit that life throws her; that is just amazing. During the time when I was quite a mess, I came to realize that I was not alone, so my mind began to wander and think about everyone else, and the world. And I thought that, hey, when people are indeed a mess, they are blind to everyone else's sufferings. So I stopped to think about some of my girlfriends who had gone through shits, I thought about the losses that some of the people I know had experienced, and then suddenly I feel that my problem has become so minute, as if it diminishes when it's put against all the other pressing issues of the world. And then I realized, that, actually, all of us are broken, at one point in time. ALL of us, are broken. But then, we are given chances to be whole again, and that process is really up to how one handles it. And in my opinion, Elizabeth did it so well, I think this isn't the first time I pen down my praises of her here in this blog.
So yeah, roughly about 1 more week till school starts. It's time for me to make it awesome (:
Labels: authors, books, deep, emo, experiences, introspection, Islam, school, thoughts
My world
Tuesday, July 19, 2011, 1:59 PM
What do you do if you are able to relate to every single song and movie? It sucks isn't it?
Dire rien
Sunday, June 26, 2011, 9:06 AM
I just love this quote.“You will forgive me, I hope you don’t mind me saying, I just wanted to add, if you’ve got time and I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, because you should know, before we go any further, we should put everything on the table because the reality is and the truth is and the fact of the matter is, I shouldn’t interrupt but I was wondering and if you know, please tell me, how we manage to say so much, without saying anything at all.”
Source I Wrote This For You
Labels: quotable quotes
Every step we take
Wednesday, June 1, 2011, 2:53 PM
I am lacking of sleep. Jiayee just left Singapore this morning, and she left, for good :( Adieu my dearest friend, hope you'll settle in pretty well in Perth! For kpo people, no, I am not graduating yet. I bravely withdrew my graduation at the Dean's Office yesterday morning, not knowing what to expect this coming academic year. Ever since Monday morning, there's this mixture of looming fear and excitement that never seemed to go away. I am afraid of uncertainties. But a few awesome people told me to go for it, and to grab this opportunity. Yes, life is a learning experience. I have to face challenges head on. I just need to believe that I can do this.Also, if you're wondering about my French international exam.. As I told those who asked me about it, it was pretty challenging and tough. I have this feeling that it might be difficult to pass, but in the event that I fail, at least I know I tried my best. I only came to realise from this particular event that it's really the journey that matters. Minus all the sighing I heaved throughout the mugging hours (as observed by shuqin), I really learnt a lot about the language. I think throughout the entire time I studied French, it was only recently that I began to see it in a much deeper sense. I was forced to read articles pertaining to the society, to environmental concerns, educational matters. It was good. I suddenly feel that during this phase, I slowly stepped up onto a more mature level of the language. And it was worth it because if I hadn't taken up this exam, I doubt I will ever force myself to experience the challenge of reading through difficult materials. And how can I ever forget the excellent company? I am proud to say that I have met gems while learning a language we all love. And it was all bearable with these people taking it with me, and for that, I did not leave Alliance Francaise feeling defeated (:
On top of that, I am also currently unemployed.
Labels: exams, experiences, french, thoughts
Tweet tweet
Friday, May 27, 2011, 9:22 AM
The power of Twitter. A platform for expressing one's feelings, wants, anger, rants and whatnots. All it took was for me to say "I want KFC porridge for breakfast!" and 5 minutes later, Lina called me, and voila, we're gonna meet up for KFC breakfast. Awesome or what. I'm a proud consumer of social media. Although I don't tweet as much.Labels: social media, spontaneity
In all your consciousness
Tuesday, May 24, 2011, 11:26 AM
Yes, do not let events ruin your day.
This, should be everyone's mantra.
Labels: motivation, reposts
In Your Arms
11:07 AM
Obviously, due to many days of unwritten entries, it is due to la paresse that kicked in ever since my exam ended. On a more serious note, I'll be taking an international french exam this Thursday. For these past few days, I've been seriously questioning myself why on earth did I decide to sit for this exam, and why B2 level?! Impulsiveness? Boldness? Stupidity? I really really hope that the 4 papers I'll be sitting for won't be so hard on me. Anyway Monsieur (don't tell you which one!) has been so nice, can you imagine, him, photocopying past exam papers for me and lending me 3 of his books!? Again, I cannot help but to notice how charmant he is. Anyway, ever since Paris (I think I've mentioned this a few times before here), I just cannot get sick of 'Endless Love'. Yes the Mariah Carey and Luther's version. I was on the bus last night, all mentally drained, perhaps mostly on my left side of the brain, for I've used it up to painstakingly comprehend French, and listening to 'Endless Love'. Well, it was only last night that I decide that this shall be one of my wedding songs if/when the day comes. Don't judge me. I do not have much plans about the future yet, but the song is so suitable for weddings.
And this Kina Grannis song is just lovely. I can't seem to get sick of it. This version's super quirky, but if you really like it, you should listen to its original version.
Hush now, let's go quiet to the park where it first started
Cold night, us lying in the dark
I felt my heart was trying to find a place for you to stay
A place where I'd feel safe
Anything we have known
Anything we've forgotten
In the rain, in the dark we'll lay
In your arms, in your arms I'll stay
Take my hand, let's go into the trees
Behind the branches, falling on our knees
I remember feeling like this part of us would never change
Anything we have known
Anything we've forgotten
In the rain, in the dark we'll lay
In your arms, in your arms I'll stay
Follow me
We both know the way
It's always been the same
Anything we have known
Anything we've forgotten
In the rain, in the dark we'll lay
In your arms, in your arms I'll stay
Labels: clips, exams, french, languages, love, lyrics, music
Gonna get over it
Wednesday, May 11, 2011, 2:28 AM
Singapore's night heat was getting to me, totally couldn't sleep. Had burst of mixed emotions from nowhere really. Had nothing to do. Was admiring pretty girls on Facebook. And then catching up with Fadiah on skype. And then it struck me. How much I should have planned my years carefully. I should have studied harder in Year 1, so I could go for exchange in Year 3. I could have had my dreams come true, study in a French-speaking country, and just have a European experience for 6 months. I should have studied harder so I wouldn't have to struggle so much in Year 3 just so I can make it for honours. Well looks like I hadn't plan it out so well huh? It sucks. Sucks sucks sucks. Now I feel like rolling into a ball and shrink into nonexistence.But then again there's no point in thinking over the past. It's over. At least I am thankful for all the opportunities I grabbed during these 3 years in NUS (I've drafted a long entry on this, have yet to publish it due to incompletion).
On a more positive note, Sara Bareilles concert later at Esplanade! Can't wait.
Now, tell me, when is it that she goes off-pitch live?!
Check this song out, it's awesome!
i'll be alright
just not tonight
Secret Garden
Friday, May 6, 2011, 10:23 AM
Joo Won's priceless words:"A chic, short haircut, tanned skin... doesn't smile much... gets angry easily, eyes that are a little sad. Some who can't run for Miss Korea because of a knife scar.... Am I crazy? Mum, I'm just saying this, but even if I go mad, can you still give me my inheritance?"
Secret Garden
Labels: K-drama
I do do do do do
Sunday, May 1, 2011, 12:11 AM
I think I almost forgot how nice it feels to blog. I haven't been typing much ever since school started this year and that sucks because I totally lost touch with this space. So I'll be slowly revitalizing the energy here.Decided to head down to Coronation Plaza two-leveled Starbucks today. A change of environment is indeed good because at least I could absorb some stuffs unlike yesterday. Totally love the ambience because it was a mix of carefree and studious environment (yeah Singaporean students study anywhere and everywhere). As usual, I had an awesome relationship with my hot chocolate hazelnut and had a nice, warm blueberry muffin. Yep, I realize that tea and cakes can really make my day (:
I met with my girlies for ais' birthday celebration. And adhering to the theme, it was small, special and intimate. Oh how I miss girly moments and fun-time. Yes, I do sound like I really spent a great deal amount of time away from these things. In actual fact, I did go to the central library for about 13 days or so (sucha loser right?), but of course Rui Qi and myself would beg to differ because they were productive days plus random, spurts of fun times too. It's nice having a study mate although I broke it today simply because I could not take being in the same place for a long time. So I left the library in a haste yesterday, spent some time in the bus dealing with myself for once, separate from academic aspirations, and met Qeen for dinner. And it was good (:
Random facts of the day:
- I think figs (which are high on dietary fibre I should add), can really work your bowels.
- It takes many muscles to frown, so smiling, in many ways, are beneficial.
- Bruno Mars looks like a mat (not spreading beach mats, but mats as in, malay idling boys under the HDB blocks) in the Lazy Song with his checkered shirt. Heehee. But still cute and awesome tho!
- NUS residences are not so bad after I had my sleepover experience in diila's room at RVR! Although sleeping on the sleeping bag is rather back-breaking, but it was good. We talked our way to sleep, mostly talking about anything french.
Random question of the day:
- Can Bruno Mars speak tagalog?
And I absolutely LOVE this.
Can you spot the different smileys found in the clip?
And I love perky women. Contagious!
Labels: celebrities, clips, girlfriends, heart-warming, love, music, random, school
Set fire to the rain
Saturday, April 30, 2011, 9:32 AM
I let it fall, my heart
And as it fell, you rose to claim it
It was dark and I was over
Until you kissed my lips and you saved me
My hands, they were strong, but my knees were far too weak
To stand in your arms without falling to your feet
But there's a side to you that I never knew, never knew
All the things you'd say, they were never true, never true
And the games you'd play, you would always win, always win
But I set fire to the rain
Watched it pour as I touched your face
Well, it burned while I cried
'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name
When laying with you I could stay there
Close my eyes, feel you here forever
You and me together, nothing is better
'Cause there's a side to you that I never knew, never knew
All the things you'd say, they were never true, never true
And the games you's play, you would always win, always win
But I set fire to the rain
Watched it pour as I touched your face
Well, it burned while I cried
'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name
I set fire to the rain
And I threw us into the flames
When we fell, something died
'Cause I knew that that was the last time, the last time
Sometimes I wake up by the door
That heart you caught must be waiting for you
Even now when we're already over
I can't help myself from looking for you
I set fire to the rain
Watched it pour as I touch your face
Well, it burned while I cried
'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name
I set fire to the rain
And I threw us into the flames
When we fell, something died
'Cause I knew that that was the last time, the last time, oh
Oh, no
Let it burn, oh
Let it burn
Let it burn
Set Fire To The Rain - Adele
Adele is simply brilliant! I think she wouldn't look as attractive if she's size 8. And no, she doesn't look like Blair Waldorf!
Labels: celebrities, lyrics, music
World in front of you
9:16 AM
Monsieur Waldo Wally shared this video with me a couple of days back. I thought it's good, and so true too. And I love the background song called 'Cambridge' by Kina Grannis towards the end of the video (:The elections are getting really interesting.
I am getting sick of the central library (fer real).
I have one more paper to go, which is next Thursday.
Am not exactly super prepared for it, so gotta push myself for one last paper!
Have a good Saturday y'all!
Labels: clips, exams, heart-warming, love, ramblings
Rolling in the deep
Sunday, April 24, 2011, 12:23 AM
All I can muster to say is Adele's album '21' is too awesome! (:I have 3 more papers to go!
je ne t'aime pas comme ca
Thursday, April 14, 2011, 10:49 AM
Be, be your love
Thursday, April 7, 2011, 11:13 AM
Just in Rachael Yamagata mood (:If I could take you away
Pretend I was queen
What would you say
Would you think I'm unreal
'Cause everybody's got their way I should feel
Everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love, for real
Everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love for real
Want to be your everything
Everything...
Everything's falling, and I am included in that
Oh, how I try to be just okay
Yeah, but all I ever really wanted
Was a little piece of you
Everything will be alright
If you just stay the night
Please, sir, don't you walk away, don't you walk away, don't you walk away
Please, sir, don't you walk away, don't you walk away, don't you walk away
And everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love, for real
Everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love for real
I want to be your love, love, love
Don't stop inspiring me
Sunday, April 3, 2011, 1:55 PM
I've just been listening to No Doubt recently. Someone tell me why the old songs seem so much better?Run
Running all the time
Running to the future
With you right by my side
Me
I'm the one you chose
Out of all the people
You wanted me the most
I'm so sorry that I've fallen
Help me up lets keep on running
Don't let me fall out of love
Running, running
As fast as we can
Do you think we'll make it?
(Do you think we'll make it?)
We're running
Keep holding my hand
It's so we don't get separated
Be
Be the one I need
Be the one I trust most
Don't stop inspiring me
Sometimes it's hard to keep on running
We work so much to keep it going
Don't make me want to give up
BOO ME
Monday, March 28, 2011, 5:31 PM
AFTERMATH OF LAST-MINUTE-SUBMISSION. DISLIKE :(NEVER EVER WANT TO FEEL RUSHED, EVER AGAIN.
Labels: rants
Never Let Me Go
Wednesday, March 23, 2011, 10:00 PM
I know I haven't been blogging for at least a month. Falling sick is indeed a double-edged sword cos for one, I have a reason to slow down and rest. I realised I haven't done some of the things I totally deserve, like catching up on Glee, and perhaps this blog, which I've been neglecting a lot, woops.There has been a lot of good music lately. I chanced into this one. Nearly screamed cos it's REGINA SPEKTOR MEETS RADIOHEAD! She did a cover on 'No Surprises'. Awesome or what!? Regina, please come to Singapore!! If it's anyone, it should be her because she's an exquisite singer.
So on updates, there has been a lot going on lately. Deadlines, assignments, presentations. A traumatizing encounter with a stranger. And, a sudden death of a friend. May he rest in peace. Dear God, please heal the people who love him and may they move on with their lives for in Hereafter, we shall all meet again. Death has been a looming subject at one point of time. It has ingrained in me that it is a part of the life's equation, whether we like it or not. And that somehow, each of us has to go. I came across our dear Marilyn Monroe's quote on death, she mentioned something like how peaceful it would be to be resting and be surrounded with flowers, and without needing to think about yesterday, today or tomorrow. Death has struck me so deep because the death of someone I know personally gives me a reminder that life is indeed short. And at that point in time, my mind was fixated upon the whole uncertainty of it, not knowing how, or when we have to go. Well, at least there's one thing we all can be sure of, to make sure we live life to the fullest, and that there are no regrets, and that life is worth living for. Because sometimes, we really don't know how to live. So live my dear friends.
So while each of us has been battling with our own little things, there are greater bigger, things out there. Just when we thought that life sucks, there are people dying. My heart goes our to the Japanese victims. I really admire them so much for their strength. May they grow stronger in this adversity.
On a lighter note, I want to thank all my lovely friends who have made my birthday an awesome one.
Yes this shout-out is totally overdued!
Can't wait to read these:
Yeah it's a coincidence that these books are written by Japanese. I didn't manage to catch 'Never Let Me Go' as I had intended because I really have no time! But I'll settle on for reading first (:
Anyway, gotta find 10 newspaper cuttings and write an 8-page essay on them by Monday, and progress is really 1% boohoo. Why don't we have a CTRL + F button in real life?
Labels: authors, books, death, deep, music, school, shout-outs, thoughts
Alice
Saturday, February 19, 2011, 12:49 AM
When the world's crashing down
When I fall and hit the ground
I will turn myself around
Don't you try to stop me
I realised that Alice in Wonderland has really awesome soundtrack. Songs by The All American Rejects, Plain White Ts, Motion City Soundtrack, Tokio Hotel, Owl City and of course many more!
Girlfriends
Friday, February 18, 2011, 9:18 AM
I cannot imagine life without girlfriends and the many wonderful things associated with it. Heart-to-heart talks, giggly giggles, genuinity, deep conversations, compassion, having them to relate extremely well with you, being silly together, doing many million girly (or non-girly) things, gossiping (yes this is bad but I am certain every girl does it), story sharing, warm hugs, sleepovers, comfortable silences, squeals, being there for each other NO MATTER WHAT, talking about everything under the Sun knowing they won't EVER judge you, boy talk, boy crushes, celebrity crushes, window shopping, shopping.. uh shopping? It's like there's this bond and camaraderie only girls understand.
And I'd say that we should be thankful to have the amazing girls to whom we can do all these with.
Labels: deep, friendships, girlfriends, introspection, love, thoughts
20 untranslatable words from all around the world
Saturday, February 5, 2011, 4:48 PM
I just really wanna share this. Because I'm in love with languages and it's really nice to discover words that are capable of conveying their meanings without having to explain so much.-
1. Toska
Russian – Vladmir Nabokov describes it best: “No single word in English renders all the shades of toska. At its deepest and most painful, it is a sensation of great spiritual anguish, often without any specific cause. At less morbid levels it is a dull ache of the soul, a longing with nothing to long for, a sick pining, a vague restlessness, mental throes, yearning. In particular cases it may be the desire for somebody of something specific, nostalgia, love-sickness. At the lowest level it grades into ennui, boredom.”
2. Mamihlapinatapei
Yagan (indigenous language of Tierra del Fuego) – “the wordless, yet meaningful look shared by two people who both desire to initiate something but are both reluctant to start” (Altalang.com)
3. Jayus
Indonesian – “A joke so poorly told and so unfunny that one cannot help but laugh” (Altalang.com)
4. Iktsuarpok
Inuit – “To go outside to check if anyone is coming.” (Altalang.com)
5. Litost
Czech – Milan Kundera, author of The Unbearable Lightness of Being, remarked that “As for the meaning of this word, I have looked in vain in other languages for an equivalent, though I find it difficult to imagine how anyone can understand the human soul without it.” The closest definition is a state of agony and torment created by the sudden sight of one’s own misery.
6. Kyoikumama
Japanese – “A mother who relentlessly pushes her children toward academic achievement” (Altalang.com)
7. Tartle
Scottish – The act of hestitating while introducing someone because you’ve forgotten their name. (Altalang.com)
8. Ilunga
Tshiluba (Southwest Congo) – A word famous for its untranslatability, most professional translators pinpoint it as the stature of a person “who is ready to forgive and forget any first abuse, tolerate it the second time, but never forgive nor tolerate on the third offense.” (Altalang.com)
9. Prozvonit
Czech – This word means to call a mobile phone and let it ring once so that the other person will call back, saving the first caller money. In Spanish, the phrase for this is “Dar un toque,” or, “To give a touch.” (Altalang.com)
10. Cafuné
Brazilian Portuguese – “The act of tenderly running one’s fingers through someone’s hair.” (Altalang.com)
11. Schadenfreude
German – Quite famous for its meaning that somehow other languages neglected to recognize, this refers to the feeling of pleasure derived by seeing another’s misfortune. I guess “America’s Funniest Moments of Schadenfreude” just didn’t have the same ring to it.
12. Torschlusspanik
German – Translated literally, this word means “gate-closing panic,” but its contextual meaning refers to “the fear of diminishing opportunities as one ages.” (Altalang.com)
13. Wabi-Sabi
Japanese – Much has been written on this Japanese concept, but in a sentence, one might be able to understand it as “a way of living that focuses on finding beauty within the imperfections of life and accepting peacefully the natural cycle of growth and decay.” (Altalang.com)
14. Dépaysement
French – The feeling that comes from not being in one’s home country.
15. Tingo
Pascuense (Easter Island) – Hopefully this isn’t a word you’d need often: “the act of taking objects one desires from the house of a friend by gradually borrowing all of them.” (Altalang.com)
16. Hyggelig
Danish – Its “literal” translation into English gives connotations of a warm, friendly, cozy demeanor, but it’s unlikely that these words truly capture the essence of a hyggelig; it’s likely something that must be experienced to be known. I think of good friends, cold beer, and a warm fire. (Altalang.com)
17. L’appel du vide
French – “The call of the void” is this French expression’s literal translation, but more significantly it’s used to describe the instinctive urge to jump from high places.
18. Ya’aburnee
Arabic – Both morbid and beautiful at once, this incantatory word means “You bury me,” a declaration of one’s hope that they’ll die before another person because of how difficult it would be to live without them.
19. Duende
Spanish – While originally used to describe a mythical, spritelike entity that possesses humans and creates the feeling of awe of one’s surroundings in nature, its meaning has transitioned into referring to “the mysterious power that a work of art has to deeply move a person.” There’s actually a nightclub in the town of La Linea de la Concepcion, where I teach, named after this word. (Altalang.com)
20. Saudade
Portuguese – One of the most beautiful of all words, translatable or not, this word “refers to the feeling of longing for something or someone that you love and which is lost.” Fado music, a type of mournful singing, relates to saudade. (Altalang.com)
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Home
Thursday, February 3, 2011, 6:35 PM
I may still not know what I want to be when I grow up, but I do know that someday I want to live in a house filled with my books and travel souvenirs. And the walls that aren’t covered in bookshelves will be covered with photos of my family and friends. When I leave the house I will be going to a job I love, and I’ll return to a person I love. So, that’s the dream I’m working on.
Source
Labels: quotable quotes
Bound to you
11:11 AM
Funny things happen whenever I'm too engrossed in a conversation with someone. Like take last Friday for example in the school library, I happened to bump into this psych senior of mine so I asked her about how honours is like and stuffs like that. And all that while I was registering myself to book a computer. So I was yakking away and I could actually multi-task, but I FORGOT the computer I chose to sit at. How silly. Can you imagine after choosing the computer seat, I glanced at the seat number without internalizing it. How typical of me!Something just came across my mind. And perhaps it has to do with me being a girl and everything. Sometimes I really wonder why on earth do the amount of clothes in my wardrobe simply DIMINISHES at an alarming speed. Are there crocodiles down there? Oh gosh. And each time that happens I feel like I don't have clothes when that isn't true at all! Ah, I need to shop nonetheless! CNY sales FTW :D
Oh happy Lunar New Year to my Chinese friens, and any Koreans out there who's reading this cos I believe they celebrate it too right?
I finally caught Burlesque. Christina is beyond awesome. I've always thought she has the best female vocals ever. And perhaps Kelly Clarkson as well.
Suddenly the moment's here
I embrace my fears
All that I have been carrying all these years
Do I risk it all
Come this far just to fall, fall
Ooh,
I'm bound to you.
Beautifully written and sung.
Labels: lyrics, movies, music, ramblings, random, school
Not so ordinary
Wednesday, January 26, 2011, 10:18 AM
There's really something about today that makes it a very good day although I'm only typing this at 10:18 am. I am a happy girl. I slept earlier yesterday (note that my early can be 12 am), and I woke up this morning feeling fresh and for once in a week or so, I feel like I've had sufficient sleep. I woke up to a nice motivational message and suddenly I feel I can do anything. Took a nice shower, picked on a simple tunic top with my flowery scarf and slipped into my comfortable denim pumps. I managed to board onto a bus that was almost empty. When I alighted the bus, there were 2 of the same buses behind me, all crowded. Am a lucky girl. Sauntered to school macs to get a cheap $4.30 breakfast meal and am here seated in my favourite part of the school library, and without having to see this regular couple hogging the power plug. Savoured my hashbrowns, went to the washroom and I stared at myself in the mirror and I see a very contented girl. I'm thankful :DSo far it's been good. So I hope I can complete my never-ending agendas for the day.
Have a good day everyone!
Like a train on the track
Tuesday, January 25, 2011, 12:24 PM
THIS SEM'S WORKLOAD IS CRAZILY HEAVY SHEESH.Anyway here's a new official 2010 video for Dog Days Are Over.
I love awesome musicians like that!
You know what I'm excited for?
RACHAEL YAMAGATA & SARA BAREILLES CONCERT! :D
Money in the bank account, please grow! I wanna attend for at least one of their concerts! The bad thing is that Bareilles' concert is during the exam period nyeh.
Conversation
Sunday, January 23, 2011, 1:35 AM
For all the times we have forgotten you, or neglected you, You have never left us, deserted us, or forgotten us. Thank you, God.
Many times over.
Labels: deep
Run
Wednesday, January 19, 2011, 11:11 PM
notes to self:be punctual for classes
start studying
sois patient
shouldn't internalize what other people think/say too much
must go at own pace - because it's me leading my life, and not anyone else
start saving up - STOP. STOP. STOP spending so much on food
find a tutee
get mp3 fixed
Labels: lists, random, thoughts
Change
Monday, January 17, 2011, 6:27 PM
I've been thinking alot about this whole notion of 'change' as of late. Funny why I didn't think much of it when Dr Lehman was talking about it a whole lot in my MNO lectures as I do now. Thanks to his inspiring lectures which were apparently sticky, I can still remember what he said. People often think that we are resistant to change, that people crawl back to their old routines and bad habits die hard, but perhaps we have under-evaluated the need for change and our ability to embrace change. The best example Dr Lehman has always used to illustrate how simple change can be is how he had made the lifelong decision to marry his dear wife he has spoken alot of endearingly in our lectures. THAT is change, but not that hard apparently ey? Again, he used another example; pertaining to his career and that some changes are required. The main question I want to pose is, how can we embrace change?It never occurred to me how un-volatile I can be. I've always thought that I'm a flexible person, but I think I've been stuck in a lifestyle I've been so comfortable in for so long that perhaps I do need change.. A good change?
And to type all this while my nose is running is pretty amazing. Oh my.
And I haven't been blogging for abit. Time for music share! A captivating one by Mika!
Can you believe it? In the midst of shopping for a pyjamas pants at FOC jb, MTV was showing apparently and Qeen and I stood in front of the TV in the middle of the shop for awhile thanks to this song :D
Labels: clips, deep, introspection, music, thoughts
Another new semester
Tuesday, January 11, 2011, 11:58 PM
Clearly I was still floating in the holidayland on the first day of school (yesterday) as I was so confident to have left home, even filled up my 1 litre bottle of water with everything else BUT my pencil case and foolscap paper. How silly of me. That's like going out on a normal day to meet up with friends!Darwin & Evolution lecture was uber boring. I certainly think that Darwin and the law of evolution is not boring at all, but it's really the lecturer. Droned on and on and on about the whole history before Charles Darwin came up with evolution.
As usual and anticipated, I always have the entry of the first day of school and the modules I'm taking this sem:
Adolescent Psychology
Language and Cognitive Processes
Lab in Interpersonal Relationships
Introduction to Social Work
Darwin & Evolution
Le sigh. No francais this semester, I have decided to forego it just for the sake of my CAP. There's no point in taking a module I'll get a mediocre grade for and a module that I can neither S/U or even pull up my CAP as a whole. So hopefully social work will boost up my CAP a little. Adolescent psych lecture today was good, although we expected Dr Sim to be taking this module but it turned out to be this good german prof. So i guess it's not bad after all because for one, we can definitely relate to some of the materials learnt.
I hope that the school mood will finally sink in a little. Well at least I remembered to bring my school materials today unlike yesterday.
Perfect Symmetry - Keane; on repeat :D
Labels: school
je vous remercie
Wednesday, January 5, 2011, 9:18 AM
At this very moment, I feel deeply thankful for the friends that I have, and those who look out for me and want the best for me (: And I felt like blogging just that.
<3
Labels: heart-warming
2011
Friday, December 31, 2010, 12:50 PM
I know I haven't been the best updater the whole of this December. Let's just say I've been having the slackiest, meetups-filled, food-filled, latenights-filled, phonecalls-filled, movie-filled December since the last 2 decembers have been spent doing OCIPs. And for that I'm glad that I've been doing what I've been doing for school will be starting soon. Reason why I've suddenly decided to peek into this blog is to wish all an advanced Happy New Year 2011 before I check myself into the hotel with my lovely usuals to spend our 31st and 1st together. I hope 2010 has been treating all well and let's usher the new year with a bang! Woo.See you guys next year :)
XXXXXX
Labels: celebration
Il Dolce Far Niente!
Thursday, December 9, 2010, 12:04 PM
One of the best things about the school holidays is the fact that I finally have "me" time I've never had enough of during the buzzling school semesters. True that I've been going out every single day last week ever since my last paper, but spending time at home and doing the things I've wanted to like catching up with my shows, movies, reading, music, stoning, lying down but not sleeping, television, lingerrr.blogspot, tumblr, have never felt so blissful for these couple of days.
My playlist/soundtrack as of late :)
- Fade Together - Franz Ferdinand
- Fidelity - Regina Spektor
- Foundations - Kate Nash
- Mushaboom - Feist
- Le Festin - Camille
- L'Uomo Che Amava Le Donne - Nina Zilli
- Uncharted - Sara Bareilles
- The Goldfish Song - Kina Grannis
- Drumming Song - Florence + The Machine
I cannot imagine a better world without good, awesome music in it.
I just recently watched 'Love Happens' on HBO and I cannot help but to share some of the quirky words they used:
1) Quidnunc: a person who is eager to know the latest news and gossip; a gossip or busybody
2) Poppysmic: the sound produced by smacking one's lips
3) Sesquipedalianist: a person who uses long, unusual, sometimes obscure words in speech or writing
What sesquipedalianism.
Oh and I've decided to put 'Il Dolce Far Niente' as my entry title today because I feel that I have mastered the 'art of doing nothing' (as what it means) for these few days. I did mention this quote before, it's adapted from the book 'Eat, Pray, Love', which I've watched the movie on Monday (unfortunately i didn't manage to catch the movie when it was in the theatres). I must say that I love the movie. I didn't find it boring as I heard some people would think, I find it particularly therapeutic. So, as much as I love the book, the same goes for the movie. I must say that Julia Roberts is the perfect elizabeth gilbert they can ever find.
And I'd like to go to Italy and learn Italian, pretty please? I like how Italians speak with their hands :)
Yesterday Rui Qi and I surprised Joy at the airport before she departed to Australia. I love surprising people. And oooh, the Esplanade library will be one of the occasionally visited as Mademoiselle Rui Qi told me that we can borrow free DVDs for a month, it's like borrowing books, but in movies form woohoo! Speaking as a movie buff!
Labels: authors, books, heart-warming, music, playlists, quotable quotes, singapore
Gleek
Sunday, December 5, 2010, 1:54 PM
Warning, this entry will be filled with awesome Glee numbers :)Gwyneth is so awesome isn't she? She can sing!
Teenage Dream!!
Furt :D
Love this Sectionals performance. The dance Mike and Brittany pulled was goood.
And last my not least, my favouritest of them all, Dog Days Are Over. And of course the original is the best although Tina and Mercedez nailed this song :)
Dog Days Are Over - Florence + The Machine
Happiness hit her like a train on a track
Coming towards her stuck still no turning back
She hid around corners and she hid under beds
She killed it with kisses and from it she fled
With every bubble she sank with her drink
And washed it away down the kitchen sink
The dog days are over
The dog days are done
The horses are coming
So you better run
Run fast for your mother, run fast for your father
Run for your children, for your sisters and brothers
Leave all your loving, your loving behind
You cant carry it with you if you want to survive
The dog days are over
The dog days are done
Can you hear the horses?
'Cause here they come
And I never wanted anything from you
Except everything you had and what was left after that too, oh
Happiness hit her like a bullet in the back
Struck from a great height by someone who should know better than that
Run fast for your mother, run fast for your father
Run for your children, for your sisters and brothers
Leave all your loving, your loving behind
You cant carry it with you if you want to survive
The dog days are over
The dog days are done
Can you hear the horses?
'Cause here they come
The dog days are over
The dog days are done
The horses are coming
So you better run
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